THAT’S HOW SHE FOUND HER WAY

DoubleSpeak, 2024

In memory of Harriet Tubman

Moses was willing to die. That’s how she found her way.

I go to prepare a place for you, she said. I ask you to care for the people you’re with as if each one is a friend you trust. Say “yes” to what’s in front of you. Yes yes yes, no fear. Roar at your paper tiger, run right through its teeth, scare off your past, rip right through its need to impose itself on your present, to make itself known in your reactions, your biases, your aversions, your preferences.

Salvation’s dragons hold beer bottles in the shadows, in holy surrender, knowing the apprenticeship of this life leads to the next, to the sky within the sky, to the self within the self. There’s justice in the old man letting go what the young boy craves. To each his own, to thine own self be true. Real suffering brings together people who don’t know each other. Their unity becomes their miracle.

Look for the lands where the desperation and doubt of the mind can find the diamonds and doings of the heart. It matters what you think you see, but never stop wondering what it is you may not be seeing. Being a little unsure is all you need to open a lot of locked doors. No risk, no freedom. Remember, what you feel is not who you are.There are new worlds to explore in knowing that.

Moses was willing to die. That’s how she found her way.